We are what we eat?

Something is wrong with me.  I have become very obsessed with food.  I do not know if it has something to do with the fact that I work at a health food grocery or if it has something to do with not having money to buy what I want, when I want.

Either way, I hate that I keep spinning my mental wheels on something so trivial and ordinary and... unenlightening.  Can I not think of something more important?  

It has gotten so bad that I find myself getting excited about the grocery mailers that come in the mail.  (I know that they arrive every Tuesday.)  I pour over them and make imaginary lists, then compare between stores.  Then I throw it all in the recycling bin, because the lists are always so expansive that I could never afford them.  They also seem wasteful some how.  I get frustrated when I am working the checkout and someone (usually mothers, I'll wager) come through and get seven to ten bags of food.  Does anyone really NEED all of that?  I have never been a mother, so I don't know.  My dog only eats one thing.  (Dog food)

I also hate that I do this because I finally got back down to my driver's license weight, kind of without trying.  It was at a time when money was extremely tight and I had to ration what I had.  Sometimes I made the free samples at the store into a meal.  At that time though, I drank tons of water, took vitamins, and rarely thought about food.  I even cut out dinner some, and it was great.  I felt wonderful.  Now all of a sudden, I have this obsession, and I have no idea from whence it came.

Is there such a thing as online therapy?  I would like to get back to thinking of more important things, like spirituality, inner peace, writing snailmail letters to people, or horses.

Criminy, I need help.